When wounded people cast our issues upon the God that is higher than we are, healing begins. When those in dire need wait for others to 'Fix' us, we become trapped in the 'waiting game'. If the 'Fix' isn't what we needed, we can feel doubly trapped because whether we do nothing and stay stuck or admit that what we received didn't work, we reveal our hurt. Fear grips us making us feel as if somehow we are responsible for tearing what's left of our shattered personhood apart.
God is not like man, whom He fashioned and expelled from Eden because of sin. No! God in Mathew 11:18 says, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” And God’s rest is not like that of man, for it a rest from our hateful self-talk stilling all voices but His as you draw near to Him until all you can here is, “I have loved you with an everlasting love (Psalm 103:17). And, “I have drawn you with unfailing kindness (Jeremiah 31:3). Finally we are told by Messiah (Christ) in John 16:24, “Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.”
I know it is hard to ask after asking for so many times that you, like me, have probably lost track. But God has not lost track, and He does hear you. Ask again, this time with the understanding that God will not change your situation as if you had no options but to deal with whatever He chooses for you. You were created with a free will, which He will never violate.
Therefore, if you wish to be free, you must knowingly enter into the process of asking God to help you heal your heart, for then, and only then will you become the you, you wish to be. And believe me, though unseen, Messiah will walk along side, and sometimes even carry you.